amivie (amivie) wrote,
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What will happen to me??

its almost been a week since i start my second semester...
and i think around yesterday, i started to feel lonely and depressed...
why??
i also don't know why...
sometimes when i'm alone...
i can't stop feeling sad and hurt...
there's something inside of me that yet to go out...
and it doesn't want to out...
that's hurt me...
because i don't know why am i feeling like this...
and if i don't know why, i can't cry...
because there's no reason to cry...
but still i really want to cry...
the burden that i feel in my shoulder really brings me down...
i hope for the better and of course things got better...
i'm not complaining that my life is sucks or doomed or destroy...
but something about my life really puts me into doom mood...
this something is something that i don't know what...

the burdens...
the burdens is pain...
it's something like when you want to speak but you don't know how...
the words got stuck inside of your body...
and you feel hurt because no one understand you..
that's what i feel...
people leaving me behind...
everyone laughing happily yet i'm depressed...
why??

do i ask for something that i shouldn't??
if that's it, then maybe i should stop asking...
but can i live like that...
there's so many things in life that i want...
there's so many things that i want to achieve...
there's places to see...
people to meet...
i don't want to stop asking...
i have to keep asking...
asking myself.....
asking(praying) Allah...
that's what i think...

so this new semester...
will it be the same as the last one??
or will it be different??
you never know...
just go on with it...
even though life is hard and you asking for it to end..
but.......
what are you going to do once it's end???
Tags: jibun_no_koto
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